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...it's been almost three months since I've posted anything Gazette-fandom related.
And as much as it pains me when I think of all the effort I've put into loving Aoiha and Reituki and spending hours compiling what I have in my fikku archive and all of the emotional investment my readers had in my writing, it pains me to say that—

—I think I've fallen out of love with this.


I know giving up is bad but after opening up my word processor and literally staring at the half-finished manuscripts of "Eyes on You" and "Gray Space" for two hours, I felt nothing. There used to be a feeling when I wrote but now, I feel like I have to force myself to write and I don't think any of you want to read half-assed crap or a plotline that's so strained because the point of it is not to entertain or evoke feelings but to simply finish.

Most of you probably won't even read this because I haven't even updated this journal in so long, but I'd like to get this out there instead of leaving you guys hanging.

To be honest, I wrote to get the comments. I liked hearing feedback from my readers and seeing how much they liked it or didn't. After "Dahlia" finished, the fikkus I wrote weren't as successful as I wanted them to be and that's how I lost interest. That, and the fact that I realize that there are other things I want to focus on more in my life, like university and spending time with the friends I just realized I have actually ignored for a very long time and practicing for the dream audition. Not to say that this decision was at all influenced by statistics, but rather that I am very thankful for the time and kind words we have exchanged for almost two years now. 

It made me very happy.
Hopefully, this won't come as shocking news to anybody but thank you and I'm sorry. *bows*

P.S. I will continue to beta though, so no worries to those people.


love, calorie-zero.
6 february 2009.
happy belated twenty-seventh birthday ruki.

Title: Eyes on You

Author: calorie-zero

Parts: 4/7

Pairing: Aoi/Uruha, Reita/Ruki
Rating: PG-13

Genre: AU, Drama, Humor

Warnings: the usual
Disclaimer: Unfortunately fiction. *tear*

Summary: Uruha has one last chance to catch Aoi's heart before graduation and Reita knows that it's not going to happen without a little bit of Ruki's magic touch to those oversized clothes and geeky glasses. But what he doesn't know is that Uruha isn't the only one that gets to fall in love...

Notes: Oh, there might be a bit of a surprise. :D

Title: Paradise
Author: calorie-zero

Chapters: 2/5

Pairing: Aoi/Uruha

Rating: PG-13

Genre: AU, Drama
Warnings: the usual
Disclaimer: Unfortunately fiction. *tear*

Summary: Forced to redeem himself for his lack of good deeds as an angel, Aoi unwillingly becomes a poor college student’s guardian and finds that he is more than willing to stay with this human for as long as he can.

Notes: I decided to put in a little twist (and if you don’t see it, it's not a problem).