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aoi
uruha
ruki
jekka
jinnz
master:D
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hiroto
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tora
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20 December 2009 @ 06:37 pm
heeeey. do any of you guys even remember me? :D?
i was looking through this journal's f-list for the first time in a year, and there are so many people that i don't talk to anymore or have left lj. so basically, i feel sad because i didn't get to say bye or anything. :| but i hope you are all doing well, etc. this is totally reminscincing, 'cos kpop fandom is totally not as nice as jrock fandom and i miss all the friends i made here.
add me on msn, if you want to reconnect or chat: pizelust@hotmail.com.
everything else put aside, merry christmas to all of you. : )
i was looking through this journal's f-list for the first time in a year, and there are so many people that i don't talk to anymore or have left lj. so basically, i feel sad because i didn't get to say bye or anything. :| but i hope you are all doing well, etc. this is totally reminscincing, 'cos kpop fandom is totally not as nice as jrock fandom and i miss all the friends i made here.
add me on msn, if you want to reconnect or chat: pizelust@hotmail.com.
everything else put aside, merry christmas to all of you. : )
12 February 2009 @ 10:19 pm
Title: Un-love
Author:![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif)
club_hypnotic in calorie_zero</lj>
Pairing: Aoiha, ninja!Reituki
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Unfortunately fiction. *tear*
Summary: Aoi tries to un-love. But the world looks so much better through Uruha's eyes.
Notes: Because Sai demanded I post this as an Aoiha, I did.
( fikku~ )
Author:
club_hypnotic in calorie_zero</lj> Pairing: Aoiha, ninja!Reituki
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Unfortunately fiction. *tear*
Summary: Aoi tries to un-love. But the world looks so much better through Uruha's eyes.
Notes: Because Sai demanded I post this as an Aoiha, I did.
( fikku~ )
Current Mood: 
disappointed
disappointedCurrent Music: loving you - tohoshinki
06 February 2009 @ 06:29 pm
...it's been almost three months since I've posted anything Gazette-fandom related.
And as much as it pains me when I think of all the effort I've put into loving Aoiha and Reituki and spending hours compiling what I have in my fikku archive and all of the emotional investment my readers had in my writing, it pains me to say that—
—I think I've fallen out of love with this.
I know giving up is bad but after opening up my word processor and literally staring at the half-finished manuscripts of "Eyes on You" and "Gray Space" for two hours, I felt nothing. There used to be a feeling when I wrote but now, I feel like I have to force myself to write and I don't think any of you want to read half-assed crap or a plotline that's so strained because the point of it is not to entertain or evoke feelings but to simply finish.
Most of you probably won't even read this because I haven't even updated this journal in so long, but I'd like to get this out there instead of leaving you guys hanging.
To be honest, I wrote to get the comments. I liked hearing feedback from my readers and seeing how much they liked it or didn't. After "Dahlia" finished, the fikkus I wrote weren't as successful as I wanted them to be and that's how I lost interest. That, and the fact that I realize that there are other things I want to focus on more in my life, like university and spending time with the friends I just realized I have actually ignored for a very long time and practicing for the dream audition. Not to say that this decision was at all influenced by statistics, but rather that I am very thankful for the time and kind words we have exchanged for almost two years now.
It made me very happy.
Hopefully, this won't come as shocking news to anybody but thank you and I'm sorry. *bows*
P.S. I will continue to beta though, so no worries to those people.
love, calorie-zero.
6 february 2009.happy belated twenty-seventh birthday ruki.
Current Mood: 
indescribable
indescribableCurrent Music: lady gaga - just dance
13 December 2008 @ 09:42 pm
So my hiatus isn't working out so well. I have no intention to actually study calculus even though I'm failing and I didn't get into Stanford (shocking, not XD) but yea.
I figured I'd pop back in instead of wasting my time with a math book. *pushes it aside*
Something should be updated by Christmas (hopefully, not all of you have run off to your vacations in foreign places). I know I made a wishlist last year for Christmas but I thought about it and there's really nothing I'm totally in love with at the moment. That, and I kind of realized I'm bad at corresponding with people and gifts and thus should not ask for anything this year! :D
Actually, even though I don't sound like it, I'm very excited at the moment! Two huge new things have just debuted in my life and I really hope they're both going to be a success. And even if they're not, I guess it's okay 'cos I still have you guys here and this LJ to cheer me up over whatever whenever.
( what could those two things be... )
Current Mood: 
excited
excitedCurrent Music: super junior - endless miracle
05 December 2008 @ 09:24 pm
SEMI-HIATUS
5 december - 20 december
It's the last few weeks of the semester and I have anywhere from three to six finals in two days very very soon~ So I would like to do good on them!
Therefore, "Eyes on You," "Gray Space," "Silhouettes," "Paradise," and "Invitro" (which I have decided I will try to continue) are all on hold for the moment. I may sporadically update any of them but not very likely because my calculus textbook will probably magically grow arms and legs and kidnap me. D:
I will be back, for sure, on the twentieth of December!
Until then, please wish me luck and don't forget about me. :D
5 december - 20 december
It's the last few weeks of the semester and I have anywhere from three to six finals in two days very very soon~ So I would like to do good on them!
Therefore, "Eyes on You," "Gray Space," "Silhouettes," "Paradise," and "Invitro" (which I have decided I will try to continue) are all on hold for the moment. I may sporadically update any of them but not very likely because my calculus textbook will probably magically grow arms and legs and kidnap me. D:
I will be back, for sure, on the twentieth of December!
Until then, please wish me luck and don't forget about me. :D
Current Mood: 
amused
amusedCurrent Music: super summer show
24 November 2008 @ 09:23 pm
I went shopping on Saturday and got a bunch of new clothes so I thought, as I was cleaning out my clothes on Sunday, why not do a photoshoot? 8D
So I did.
I'm kind of a little hesitant to post since I didn't wear any makeup and I was too lazy to photoshop them but...here they are anyways! I love my new striped hoodie-vest thing (and the chain-lock necklace <3).
Leave a comment, if you wish. <3
( pikkus~ )
So I did.
I'm kind of a little hesitant to post since I didn't wear any makeup and I was too lazy to photoshop them but...here they are anyways! I love my new striped hoodie-vest thing (and the chain-lock necklace <3).
Leave a comment, if you wish. <3
( pikkus~ )
Current Mood: amused
amusedCurrent Music: super junior - marry u
16 November 2008 @ 09:40 pm
Title: Eyes on You
Author: calorie-zero
Parts: 4/7
Pairing: Aoi/Uruha, Reita/Ruki
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, Drama, Humor
Warnings: the usual
Disclaimer: Unfortunately fiction. *tear*
Summary: Uruha has one last chance to catch Aoi's heart before graduation and Reita knows that it's not going to happen without a little bit of Ruki's magic touch to those oversized clothes and geeky glasses. But what he doesn't know is that Uruha isn't the only one that gets to fall in love...
Notes: Oh, there might be a bit of a surprise. :D
Current Mood: 
annoyed
annoyedCurrent Music: super junior m - me
14 November 2008 @ 09:57 pm
I've been noticing lately....that there are a lot of comments on my past fikkus!
And I'd like to thank everybody who commented on those very much~ Even though I might not get around to replying to those, I want you to know that I read them and they made me super-happy. :D
If you added me as a friend in the past month, I swear I am going to add you back! I just keep running out of time. D:
Another slight heads-up that doesn't really pertain to most of you, but...if you're going to add me as a friend, please comment. I am getting adds from people with some strange wicked-googly names and I'm kind of irked as to who (or what) they could be.
Anyways....something interesting I found today:
( oh what could it be... )
And I'd like to thank everybody who commented on those very much~ Even though I might not get around to replying to those, I want you to know that I read them and they made me super-happy. :D
If you added me as a friend in the past month, I swear I am going to add you back! I just keep running out of time. D:
Another slight heads-up that doesn't really pertain to most of you, but...if you're going to add me as a friend, please comment. I am getting adds from people with some strange wicked-googly names and I'm kind of irked as to who (or what) they could be.
Anyways....something interesting I found today:
( oh what could it be... )
Current Mood: 
chipper
chipperCurrent Music: Super Junior M - Me
09 November 2008 @ 09:07 pm
Title:
Author: calorie-zero
Chapters: 2/5
Pairing: Aoi/Uruha
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, Drama
Warnings: the usual
Disclaimer: Unfortunately fiction. *tear*
Summary: Forced to redeem himself for his lack of good deeds as an angel, Aoi unwillingly becomes a poor college student’s guardian and finds that he is more than willing to stay with this human for as long as he can.
Notes: I decided to put in a little twist (and if you don’t see it, it's not a problem).
Current Mood: 
tired
tiredCurrent Music: immi - speeding cars
04 November 2008 @ 09:46 pm
I think I'm addicted to making new banners. D: 'Cos I changed it again (of course, it has nothing to do with how adorable Uruha's smile in that pikku is).
...so...does anybody need to have a banner made? :D
I have recently fallen in love with the following things:
~ Tegan&Sara "Call It Off" MV (i used this song for the banner)
~ Super Junior M ("'cos I can't stop thinking about U" :D)
~ Big Bang "Baby Baby" MV
~ Tootsie-Roll Pops
~ Dresses
~ the GazettE's fantabulous double-chins
[/EDIT: OMG OBAMA WON THE ELECTION]
[/EDIT EDIT: The weather finally got colder! High tomorrow is 79*F! I can start wearing my boots with good reason~ >3]
Current Mood: chipper
chipperCurrent Music: tegan&sara - call it off
02 November 2008 @ 09:42 pm
Title: Eyes on You
Author: calorie-zero
Parts: 3/7
Pairing: Aoi/Uruha, Reita/Ruki
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, Drama, Humor
Warnings: the usual
Disclaimer: Unfortunately fiction. *tear*
Summary: Uruha has one last chance to catch Aoi's heart before graduation and Reita knows that it's not going to happen without a little bit of Ruki's magic touch to those oversized clothes and geeky glasses. But what he doesn't know is that Uruha isn't the only one that gets to fall in love...
Notes: Has anybody figured out who’s writing the little diary entries in the beginning yet? :D
Current Mood: amused
amusedCurrent Music: pink - so what
01 November 2008 @ 09:38 pm
The header has once again changed 'cos...I really liked that pikku of Uruha! :D It makes me wanna hug him 'cos he looks so adorable (and the lyrics of the song are from Panic! at the Disco's "Northern Downpour," which is a really fantabulous song).
I also updated the archive for the first time in forever. XD
Either "Paradise" or "Eyes on You" will be updated tomorrow! I'm falling back into my updating once a week pattern. :D I'll probably put up some aoiha fanart soon too.
Current Mood: amused
amusedCurrent Music: dir en grey - glass skin
26 October 2008 @ 09:03 pm
Title: Eyes on You
Author: calorie-zero
Parts: 2/7
Pairing: Aoi/Uruha, Reita/Ruki
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, Drama, Humor
Warnings: the usual
Disclaimer: Unfortunately fiction. *tear*
Summary: Uruha has one last chance to catch Aoi's heart before graduation and Reita knows that it's not going to happen without a little bit of Ruki's magic touch to those oversized clothes and geeky glasses. But what he doesn't know is that Uruha isn't the only one that gets to fall in love...
Notes: This was…sort of fast? XD
Current Mood: 
productive
productiveCurrent Music: tegan&sara - the con
21 October 2008 @ 09:34 pm
Title: Eyes on You
Author: calorie-zero
Parts: 1/7
Pairing: Aoi/Uruha, Reita/Ruki
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, Drama, Humor
Warnings: the usual
Disclaimer: Unfortunately fiction. *tear*
Summary: Uruha has one last chance to catch Aoi's heart before graduation and Reita knows that it's not going to happen without a little bit of Ruki's magic touch to those oversized clothes and geeky glasses. But what he doesn't know is that Uruha isn't the only one that gets to fall in love...
Notes: I've never written a full-on high school chapter fikku and every writer's gotta have at least a proper one, I think. :D
Current Mood: amused
amusedCurrent Music: belanova - one, two, three, go!
18 October 2008 @ 01:18 pm
I am "going" to my first Homecoming Dance tonight! :D totallynotditchingforsomewhereelse
But I dunno if I can go to dinner with Bryan&Stonerfriends before...I hope my mum wakes up soon so I can at least ask her about it 'cos he said he'll come pick me up at 4:30 and it's already 1:30. I wanna go...*whines* It's my last chance too. Plus I just finished the PSATs, I think I deserve some yayness.
Should I wear my white dress or my purple one...? Decisions, decisions.
HOMGLAUNDRY. *forgot*
I think I need a better summary for that new Reituki fikku. It seems bland now that I look at it when I'm lucid.
p.s. "soap leaves soap scum." that is SO brilliant. XD
p.p.s. chris brown sings the cutest song ever. haha. plus his shirt goes through all the colors of the rainbow and haha.
Current Mood: 
nervous
nervousCurrent Music: chris brown - with you
16 October 2008 @ 09:16 pm
Title: Silhouettes
Author: calorie-zero
Chapter: 1/3
Pairing: Reita/Ruki
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, Romance, Angst
Warnings: Drugs
Disclaimer: Unfortunately fiction. *tear*
Summary: Ruki had always thought they were too good to be true—and he hadn't been good enough to keep Reita away from self-destruction.
Notes: My Reituki-chibis have returned again, in all their angst. Supposed to be a one-shot but I am oddly incapable of writing shorter fikkus.
Current Mood: 
lazy
lazyCurrent Music: secondhand serenade - your call
15 October 2008 @ 09:53 pm
It's been five days (and two years of not telling).
Went over to Bryan's house today after school and made him play the guitar for me. Song was "You&Me" by Lifehouse. Named his teddy bear Bloo. Then we kissed and stuff and laughed over nothing.
And then he said, "I love you" in the tiniest whisper.
It's weird that I don't know if I should be happy or not. I said it back but now I think...I did something a little bit wrong. When I got home after practice, I went to bed and cried for no reason.
Now I'm all confused. :\
Eep.
P.S. Will be posting new Reituki fikku in a few days and perhaps a new chapter of "Paradise."
Went over to Bryan's house today after school and made him play the guitar for me. Song was "You&Me" by Lifehouse. Named his teddy bear Bloo. Then we kissed and stuff and laughed over nothing.
And then he said, "I love you" in the tiniest whisper.
It's weird that I don't know if I should be happy or not. I said it back but now I think...I did something a little bit wrong. When I got home after practice, I went to bed and cried for no reason.
Now I'm all confused. :\
Eep.
P.S. Will be posting new Reituki fikku in a few days and perhaps a new chapter of "Paradise."
Current Mood: 
okay
okayCurrent Music: secondhand serenade - your call
08 October 2008 @ 07:33 pm
I AM OFFICIALLY BACK!
I've really missed everybody. :\ I hope you guys didn't forget about me...did you!? D:
I feel like I left some old life behind and now I'm coming back. I really miss posting fikkus every week and random little posts and of course, talking with all of you guys here and on MSN and reading your posts about life 'cos those are always cute and fun (and sometimes, tragic).
Just to sum up the last couple of months:
* Finished applications to Stanford and University of Arizona!
* Watched way too much House
* Got my first C (in calculus! D:)
* Really got into CG art, especially for Aoi/Uruha (they'll be posted soon)
* Lots of badminton
* Sneaking on to talk sporadically
* etc. XD
To to be done:
* NEW LAYOUT AND PROFILE! Coming soon...! I'm thinking gray this time.
* "Gray Space" chapter eight~
* "Paradise" chapter two!
Oh! And I forgot. I got myself a little Uru-pet! \8D/
By Uru-pet, I mean a super-cute (but kind of dense...in a cute way) boyfriend! Don't tell him I secretly refer to him as that 'cos I think he'd be offended....
[pikku here: http://i157.photobucket.com/albums/t48/c
I'm trying to catch up with your posts and all the J-rock news I missed in the last couple of months...but it'd be really great if you guys could help fill me in with what's happened while I've been away! I'd like to be caught up so there won't be a gap when I talk to people. :) It doesn't have to be particularly important if you just want to comment with a few details of your life. :3
As they say, anything goes!
I've really missed everybody. :\ I hope you guys didn't forget about me...did you!? D:
I feel like I left some old life behind and now I'm coming back. I really miss posting fikkus every week and random little posts and of course, talking with all of you guys here and on MSN and reading your posts about life 'cos those are always cute and fun (and sometimes, tragic).
Just to sum up the last couple of months:
* Finished applications to Stanford and University of Arizona!
* Watched way too much House
* Got my first C (in calculus! D:)
* Really got into CG art, especially for Aoi/Uruha (they'll be posted soon)
* Lots of badminton
* Sneaking on to talk sporadically
* etc. XD
To to be done:
* NEW LAYOUT AND PROFILE! Coming soon...! I'm thinking gray this time.
* "Gray Space" chapter eight~
* "Paradise" chapter two!
Oh! And I forgot. I got myself a little Uru-pet! \8D/
By Uru-pet, I mean a super-cute (but kind of dense...in a cute way) boyfriend! Don't tell him I secretly refer to him as that 'cos I think he'd be offended....
[pikku here: http://i157.photobucket.com/albums/t48/c
I'm trying to catch up with your posts and all the J-rock news I missed in the last couple of months...but it'd be really great if you guys could help fill me in with what's happened while I've been away! I'd like to be caught up so there won't be a gap when I talk to people. :) It doesn't have to be particularly important if you just want to comment with a few details of your life. :3
As they say, anything goes!
Current Mood: chipper
chipperCurrent Music: secondhand serenade - fall for you
29 September 2008 @ 10:02 pm
Title:
Author: calorie-zero
Chapter: 1/?
Pairing: Aoi/Uruha
Rating: PG-13
Genre: AU, Romance, Angst
Warnings: the usual
Disclaimer: Unfortunately fiction. *tear*
Summary: Forced to redeem himself for his lack of good deeds as an angel, Aoi unwillingly becomes a poor college student’s guardian and finds that he is more than willing to stay with this human for as long as he can.
Notes: I’m sort of back again. This time with a new story I hope you all enjoy!
Current Mood: 
working
workingCurrent Music: the gazette - leech